I've always been a bit of a yo yo with my weight. I'm 5ft 3 and left Uni around the 11st mark. Got down to 9st when I met DH (over 10 years ago) and now 7 pregnancies later with 3 DC I weigh a revolting 13st 7. I do 5:2 and got done to 12st 7 in the spring but the baby (just turned 1) sleeps badly, I turn to food when tired and haven't done any exercise and I put a stone back on. I'm on week 5 of the Couch to 5k running programme and am shit at willpower so SW and WW etc don't work for me. I know 5:2 can work for me I lost 1st on it whilst pregnant but it doesn't work when I'm fucking shattered. The NHS BMI calculator says I need to lose 4lb 7. I want to lose 3 stone by the baby's 2ndbirthday in a years time. But I just feel like I've been here so many times before and it just gets worse each time.
I also feel like I have this weird body dysmorphia thing where I look in the mirror and think I look ok but could do with shifting a bit of weight and then I see photos of myself and am genuinely horrified by what I see. I don't know how to make myself want jt enough to stick. I can hear the voice in the back of my head telling me not to eat x, y or z or to scrape half what I've put on my plate off or not to have seconds but I just wave it away. I've written motivational notes, given myself restriction/treat targets and it still doesn't work. I'm the biggest self saboteur ever. I'm just getting fatter and fatter and less able to control myself and I'm scared. And this has now turned into a big ranty brain dump. Arrrrgh. How can I make myself do this once and for all?!!
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rockybalboa · 14/07/2014 23:24
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