I currently teach in an independent special needs school and have recently had a lot of problems with management (mixed messages, changing goal posts, a lot of inappropriate personal remarks, seeing only what needs to be improved rather than what is going well). Don't want to go into specifics but it has been making me feel so down and anxious that I have been having diarrhea every morning for the last 2 and a half months at he thought of going in (only weekdays never weekends or holidays so I know it's not medical). I'm normally a very strong person and I feel that these issues have drained everything out of me. All the staff at school feel apprehensive every day that it will be their day to be 'picked on' (sounds immature I know but that's what it feels like to everyone). I'm currently on a one year contract due to expire start of next term and I definitely do not want to stay on. I can't handle it and want out. I don't know if they want to renew my contract or not. I could hear a conversation they were having about me last week (head teacher has a loud voice. I could hear what she was saying from the staff room so I wasn't eavesdropping) that basically said they have a lot of concerns that I struggle to restrain pupils (I have done team teach course and still not confident. Have asked for extra training in this to protect myself and pupils but it has not been forthcoming).
Now I have got myself into a problem. I'm pregnant, about 4 weeks. Working out dates I'm due around the middle to end of January. I was on the pill but due to stress with work I have been daft and forgot it a few days. I don't want to have an abortion. I know if I tell work hey will not renew my contract long enough for me to gt smp. I don't think I want it renewing either. I still feel I want out. My plan was to go back to supply teaching next year (enjoyed it last year and got work nearly every day) but I won't have worked there long enough for smp by time baby is due.
I'm married and husband works full time. We have one child. I don't need as much money as I'm getting now and we can manage on part time wages easily, but not if I've got nothing coming in for months.
Any words of wisdom or advice! Feel beaten down.
(Ignore bad spelling and grammar. On iPad and can't be bothered to check everything)
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MrsJollyPostman · 12/05/2013 10:40
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