Feeling a bit guilty about this, although in the grand scheme of things it's not a big deal

[LollyPop87]

I feel like I've been posting on here a lot lately!

I'll keep it brief if possible. DP takes DSS back home today, after having him for four weeks. So it's going to be really tough for both of them. I often go with him for support and company (it's three hours there and three hours back at best).

I was planning on going this time too, particularly because it's probably going to be even harder than usual.

I'm not well. It's only a cold but it's a nasty one, and I feel grim. We go on holiday in a few days, and DP has said that I should stay at home and rest so I'm well for the holiday. He said a long car journey won't do me any good and he'll be fine. He's even bringing me a McDonalds before he goes so I haven't got to worry about making any lunch.

I just feel awful and so so guilty. I hate the thought of him being on his own and being upset :( but he's insisting he'll be ok, although I'm worried he's just saying it for my sake.

It's not really a step-parent issue I suppose, sorry. It's just that people are really lovely on here and I'm scared to post in AIBU for example!

It's also not a big deal, I know. I'm just feeling really guilty and worried :(

Also, DSS thinks I should stay here too as I'm obviously not well, do I don't think he minds :)

I can't even stand up without getting the most splitting headache feels sorry for self

[LollyPop87]

Sorry, that was meant to be a strike through but I made it bold by mistake!

[Softlysoftlycatchymonkey]

You feel even more guilty because the cold is making you feel like shit!

Don't feel bad, those few hours he will have alone with ds will do them both good and the drive back is always good for alone time thinking.

Have a couch day and get better !

[LollyPop87]

Thank you so much. I feel a bit better now. I just needed to hear that I wasn't an awful person. Going to crawl under my slanket and try to relax a little bit. I just hope they're both ok. It's always hard but I think it's going to be even harder this time.

Thanks again for your reply :)

[Eliza22]

Don't feel guilty. You need a rest and you don't need to feel grim for your hols and you have had dss for a month so, it's not like you're just uninvolved. Call your DP or send a text and let him know you're there for him, when he comes home. . Get well soon.