I know I'm bring unkind and selfish. But today I hate being a step parent, I resent my dsd and I wish she wasn't here.
Normally she's great and we get on brilliantly. She's 5.
But in the last month or so she's been so sulky and whingey and difficult. Can't play on her own for 5 minutes. Waking all the time for drinks, a wee, etc etc.
I know she's unsettled (her mum recently moved house). I know she's only 5. But I'm so irritated with her today. To be fair, she has no idea I'm irritated - I'm being normal with her and am ignoring the broken night we've all had. I really am a good step mum - she loves me and I'm often the parent she spends most time with during the week.
She was tiny when we met. Her parents divorced before she was born. And the contact time has just gone up and up ever since. Which is great for my dh but in reality it's me who does the school run, cooks her meals, washes her clothes, takes her to parties, ballet, swimming etc. because dh has a job with long hours.
And I do resent it. Sometimes not so much. Sometimes not at all. Watching her Christmas ballet show was incredible and I was in tears watching her - bursting with pride. But other times I feel so trapped.
And I'm not "allowed" to feel cross or annoyed with her because she's my dsd not my dd. None of my friends have step children. There's no-one I can talk to. Which is why I'm here. Ranting. Sorry...
I really am a good step mum. I do love her just not with that all consuming, unconditional love that I have for my own (very small) dc. And as my dsd gets older things just get more and more complicated. I feel trapped.
Sorry, this is long. While I typed a friend called and said "did you have an amazing Christmas?" And I said "yes, amazing!" through my tears because that is what everyone expects. It wasn't amazing. It was hard work and stressful. My normally lovely dsd was so sulky and ungrateful about everything. She just wanted to be at her Mum's house (but it was our turn). At one point I just wanted to say "fine, I'll take you to Mum's house!" but I couldn't. Not my call.
Ok, I've said enough. Thanks for reading.
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Having a tough day as a step parent
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LifeinBlue · 28/12/2012 08:50
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