I'm sorry this is long, I hope you'll bear with me. I am not a step mum, my dd has one. I hope you don't mind me posting here, I just need some persepectve. She's 3.5, has had a stepmum for over 3 years ( ex left soon after she was born) I found it hard to share my daughter, was reeling from being left alone and we had a rocky start, but by the time dd was a year, I had tried to get over it all, invited new gf to dd birthday, send christmas presesnts etc.
Despite this, Ex and now wife were very overbearing with my dd from day one, I've always tried to reason with them, explain that it upset me, They said I should be grateful - and I was (still am) but i can't get them to see it from my pov. Stepmum has very little dealings with me, I'll text about things regarding my DD, but she often doesnt reply, despite agreeing to be more communicative with me.
Ex does nothing, apart from tell me to get life,
The whole early years of DD's life have been dominated by them - family portraits of them on their walls when DD was only 6mo, walking down the aisle holding my dd in her arms on her wedding day, dd was only 22 mo:(
(nothing I can do about that, but still hurts) being really picky about tiny things, ie, how i feed my dd, her childminders were not good enough, nurseries not good enough, her shoes, her weight, you name it, even told my childminder to drop her afternoon bottle without telling me. On more than one occasion she pulled my dd out of my arms when she collected her. She refers to me as 'she' - never ever gives me my name. I was at the recieving end of a complaint fromt them at least once a week. I was at a really low ebb, let my DD spend more time there than I was happy with, ie, 3 nights a week for about a year, which i regret as they kept a diary on it all. (not sure why). I actually felt like I wasnt coping and they knew it. I was alone with DD until moving in with partner last month and I can say with my hand on my heart I feel like im still struggling to hold onto my DD. We have patches where stepmum is fine, friendly enough etc, then others where I can barely believe how i get pushed out of the picture. I believe so much of this is my fault because I let them do it from the beginning and now that I'm stonger, they wont have it. I tried last year ( via text - ex doesnt 'talk') to get his wife to treat me with more respect. I didn't call her any names, simply said I was not happy with how she treated me in front of DD (totally blanking me etc) She was furious that I had been texting him about her, said I did not have the right to 'automatic respect from her' and that she would always have a low opinion of me for as long as I complained about her to her husband. I could not get her to understand that I wouldnt have to 'complain' if she was decent to me. We did have a long talk however ( for the first time ever) and she agreed to communicate with me more - it lasted a month ( literally) and she went back to how she was. I'm stumped on what to do.They've just had a baby 2 weeks ago, I hoped and prayed it'd get better - it hasn't.
Examples of things she has done over the last 3 years are getting ex to hassle me about my DD's weight, insisting she needed to be taken to a paediatrician as she was 'obese'. ( she was 18mo) . She took dd for her 1st pair of shoes, went to my new childminders house to 'interview' her after I had already recruited her, getting my DD to call her parents 'grandma and grandpa' ( my dd is 3 - I'd rather these things happened naturally rather than being 'told' thats what they are called) . my parents dont live in this country, so consequently I have to persuade my dd that she has another set of grandparents:(. The list is endless really.
Last week stepmum collected my dd from school, spoke to her teachers about upcoming events and learned that a costume was needed for the day after, Rather than ask me if it was sorted, she went home and made one ( and it was briliant) therefore leaving the one I had sat up making the night before competely redundant. I actually cried over that, pathetic eh? I complained, ex told me to stop texting him over pathetic things. What do I do when my role as a mother just doesnt matter?
I feel so worn down, I really do. The lastest event is I was informed that a school play my dd is in will be attended by stepmum. Neither me or my ex can go due to work, but it hurts me so much to think that stepmum is there in 'loco parentis', talking to her teachers, getting involved with it all. I just dont understand why she needs to go, I really dont, my partner would never do things like this - ever. Im pretty sure you might say its in my DD's interest to have her there, but thats the thing - I dont actually believe its entirely for my dd, but rather point-scoring. I complained, but was told again to go away. My dd visits one night mid week,( on the epecific day they requested) but they often hang on to school lettters and ive almost missed an event because of it. My ex is a weak man, a good dad, but weak and willing to do whatever for an easy life.
I dont know what to do, I've tried to get on with them, invite them to DD's parties, sent presents for new baby, christmas present for whole family including her son, even invited her parents to dd party last year. I send fathers day presents from day one ( ive had one card in 4 years) and I generally try to accomodate them when I can. To be fair to them, they helped a lot in the early years, but I paid a very high price for that help.
I want to make it crystal clear that I appreciate the care she gives my dd, have told her that many times - but I cant get her to stop pushing me out of the picture. Other than 'just get on with it', please tell me what I can do?
Is there anything you can think of? I honestly feel ill at that i will lose my dd to them in one way or another:(
sorry for the length of this:(
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stressedatbest · 01/04/2011 10:40
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