Name change - pls don't out me!
I have DDs aged 4 and 18 months. SS aged 6 moved in with us a few months ago after his Mum died. (We used to have some weekends etc before). He was always annoying (no manners and happily argues with adults which I HATE!) but before it was small doses. Now every day I just want to walk out with my girls, but I can't let him lose another parent figure again, and DP would make it hard for me to go with my girls and I won't go without them.
DP and I have never been romance of the century but we were fine, IYKWIM. Anyway, SS has really just shown up all our flaws.
DP is so unrealistic and is hardly here due to working away so I feel like I have all this extra work but for someone I find hard to like (let alone love!). The thing is obviously I feel bad for him, he has had a hard life, and his behaviour is not his fault as he was just not taught these things, so I feel even more guilty that I don't like him.
I do everything for SS and try my best to do things with him and make sure he's happy, but DP gets very angry with me for not loving him or complaining that I find it so hard. I get the guilt trip of 'he's a little boy without a Mum' I KNOW! That fact alone doesn't make me love him though.
He is not naughty in a loud way, if that makes sense, but he is rude and disrespectful (this is not due to Mum passing, he has always has been the same), he will deliberately not do as asked, or lie etc and when he's told off (even just asking 'why didn't you do this... etc') he will cry and sulk for ages. Very frustrating, and DP doesn't realise it's even more frustrating when you don't have the unconditional love like you would for your own.
There is nothing particularly 'loveable' about him either. He is not funny or cute etc which can sometimes draw you to a child. Also he is very far behind in class and I spend ages helping him with reading and writing etc to bring him up. He is also so spolied, expects to be waited on hand and foot, and is greedy - really greedy and we are trying to keep his weight down as Mum used to give him bags of sweets and rubbish in order to keep him quiet so she could do internet dating. He cries about not getting food or tv etc.
I am ok on the practical parenting side, eg cooking healthy meals, limiting snacks and tv, bedtime routine and stories etc so it's not that thats my issue. I just need help on how to live in a house with a child I don't like, and don't know how to like, and how I get passed that. To be very honest (I expect to get flamed!) I just resent him being here as it just feels like I have this annoying child intruding on my little family, and I can't wait for him to go out so I can focus on my girls again. I honestly do want to get over this though as I really don't want to be miserable for the rest of my life and I don't want to fuck him up for life either.
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How can I change things? I just want to leave. Sorry - long post.
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KaceyMaybe · 26/03/2011 20:34
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