Hi all
I'm new here and feel a bit of a fraud as am not a mother at all. However, I do have a DP who has a 6 yr old DD. I met her for the first time 2 years ago and we generally get on OK and mostly things work well.
The problem I have is that it's never been explained to her properly who I actually am. She thinks I'm just her dad's friend/flatmate.
She stays for weekends regularly - at one point it was every weekend, but now it's alt weekends. Her dad dotes on her and obv wants to be the best dad ever - and he is - but the prob i have is that I find the whole situation incredibly difficult and I'm not entirely sure he understands. (natural, really). He naturally doesn't want his DD to be upset and wants to judge when to tell her what's actually going on (i think she's kind of guessed to be honest, but doesn't talk about it) I understand this, too, but I do also feel a bit as though somehow what I feel or would like don't count at all. I feel very sidelined.
I often feel that they gang up a little on me (I'm ENglish and they're Scottish and this is really becoming an issue for me because they seem to find it hilarious to go on about how scotland is brilliant and england is rubbish. My DP says it's all lighthearted, but it upsets me. The mum also hates me and it took ages for her to let her DD even spend any time with me (I completely understand this and kept my distance until things were worked out), however the ex's feelings towards me seem to be ever changing.
The dsd is often lovely to me but sometimes when her dad is out of earshot will say things that upset me...she is only 6, so I have to let them go, but it's really difficult sometimes to deal with it. I have to keep remembering that I'm supposed to be an adult, but it gets v hard!!
I feel very much that I have no say in anything that happens and am essentially completely powerless and way down on the list. I cook for them when the DD comes over, often buy the food for teas, clean up after them both - and DP does encourage her to say thanks etc, but I do still feel v much like a dogsbody for them both and yet I am basically just 'a friend.'
My DP does have a lovely relationship with his DD and I obviously want to support them both and do try, but sometimes it all gets over whelming. Particularly as my dad left us when I was 13 (now estranged from him) and put his wife first over my bro and I. I think having the DSD here brings back all those feelings and so I'm dealing with the past as well as the present.
I've talked to my DP about this and try to be grown up about it and I recognise that I am jealous of their relationship and try not to let it come out in anyway, but basically it often gets too much and I end up behaving in a really childish way out of frustration and end up hating myself for the ridiculous behaviour! I'm supposed to be a grown up!
One positive thing is that I now have huge admiration for my step dad who took us on at an early age and has been there for us always and been brilliant!
apologies for the rambling. It's just that I'm finding it all v difficult
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barmygirl · 28/02/2011 19:29
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