DD and I are not compatible at all. I am very non assertive, non confrontational, will avoid a scene rather than face one. I accept this is my problem and I am trying to deal with it, but living with DD's problems is so difficult, verging on the impossible.
DD has very challenging behaviour. She has had an ADOS assessment where I have been told she does not have ADHD and is not on the autism spectrum. I asked if DD has PDA or ODD but was told these are not recognised and do not mean anything, they are just a convenient label for children who have behavioural problems and do not have a medical diagnosis, ie: Autism or ADHD.
A referral has now been made to CAMHS tier 3.
DD is 5.
The biggest issue at the moment surrounds DD's meltdowns. She regularly has a meltdown when asked to leave somewhere or when she is asked to do something she finds difficult as well as other things, but those are my most pressing problems to find some sort of resolution to.
When in a meltdown, she will attack other children and adults, headbang ferociously, scream, kick, bite, punch, point blank refuse to stop the activity or leave the venue and run away at speed, usually around and around the venue.
For example; If I take DD to softplay, she is quite happy so long as there are no queues to get in, but once in there, if something upsets her, and quite often, I cannot predict what will upset her, she will go straight into attack mode at the nearest person.
I give very clear warnings that the end is approaching. 5 more minutes DD, 1 more minute DD, but she has no real concept of time so these are usually just water off a ducks back although it also feels wrong to 'spring' it on her.
No matter how I play it, she cannot cope with the end of things. She will run off laughing into the softplay area, in and out of ball pits and up and down flumes. It makes it worse to chase her, and she is far faster than me most of the time anyway, but at this point, if I don't catch her somehow, it ends up with her attacking other children or adults if they get in her way.
If I grab her and say calmly, we have to go now, we will come back another day, DD just goes into a complete meltdown where she glazes over and isn't responsive to any suggestions apart from me letting her go so she can do what she wants to do, scratching, screaming, swearing, biting, punching, kicking, threatening me. I literally have to drag her to the car which is no easy task due to her strength.
It is absolutely awful.
The transition to and from places has led to her being temporarily excluded from school for attacking children and adults because she doesn't want to come in from playtime, return to class, go to assembly, sit for registration, school have no idea what to do with her next and have got into a pattern of letting DD do whatever she wants to do to prevent a meltdown. It has reduced the number of meltdowns but doesn't actually resolve anything longer term.
Now it is the 6 weeks holidays and despite feeling extremely guilty about this, I just don't think I can face taking her out of the house at all because I don't know what to do to keep her safe or to cope with the meltdowns.
I have had parents being very verbally threatening towards me because I cannot control my child. I am at the end of my tether, and need some help.
DD has no fear and very little understanding of cause and effect. She fights when she has to hold hands but is liable to run across roads.
I just don't know what to do to keep her safe and retain my sanity, and that's not meant as a joke btw. I am becoming more and more depressed at how futile it all is. There appears to be no light at the end of the tunnel.
I have no support from family, and I am a single mum. I have only 1 friend left because DD gets upset if I have anyone to the house unless they are specifically playing with her. She can wait for possibly 1 minute for my attention, but wont play alone if anyone is here. I cannot speak on the phone either because DD begins chanting loudly and headbanging or destroying things.
If it is just DD and I at home, and I am not giving my attention to anyone else, DD is usually fine, but DD and I want to be able to go out during the holidays and enjoy our time together.
I am tired of the judgemental staring and the whispering behind our backs of what a shit mother I am, I am sick of the threatening aggressive parents even though I understand their frustrations when their children are being hurt. It seems the sensible option is to keep DD locked away in my house for her own safety and everyone else's safety too.
When DD is out of control, people look to me to bring everything back under control, and I hate to admit it, but I have no control over DD when she behaves this way, to calm her down or get her to stop. I have tried so many things, but none are particularly effective because DD senses it is the end of something and cannot cope with that.
This is not a case of poor discipline because I have tried consistently every single method of discipline known to man and they just don't work. Oh how I wish something did.
DD is usually fine so long as we are at home, and no one rings or comes to the house. We have very few meltdowns at home in comparison to how many there are when we step out of the house.
I want to give up but I can't.
I don't even know where to begin when parents approach me to tell me DD has once again hurt their children. I understand the concept that children feed off of their parents anxieties, but everywhere we go, as soon as DD is within arms length of another child, I am churning up inside. I cannot stop that feeling even though I don't think it shows.
I am sick of plastering a smile on my face and talking calmly when it doesn't change anything and hasn't changed anything in years. I don't feel calm. I feel like a raging bloody tornado who doesn't want to be on this ride anymore, it is spinning me around at dizzying heights, I feel sick and shaky and I want to get off, but I can't!!!!!
If I take DD out of the house and she has a meltdown, what do I do? How do I catch her? What do I say to the other parents? How do I cope?
I have tried holding her hand everywhere, but that only works until she wants to go on a slide or a roundabout or swimming or softplay or a ball pit or until she wriggles free. I have lifted and moved her and continue to do so but in great pain because I am not a young mother and I suffer from back and joint pain. I cannot hold her at those things. It is easier (yes for me) to not go at all, but this feels unfair on DD when she is already struggling to cope in a world she finds impossible difficult to understand.
Please, any tips or advice would be very much welcomed at this point.
We have various people involved but not much support during the holidays when we need it the most. Atm, we have been assigned a support worker who we've not met yet and who works one day a week. I have no idea how many children she will be working with.
I want to hide in bed for 6 weeks. Please give me strength to get through the next 6 weeks.
Here are some suggested organisations that offer expert advice on special needs.
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Please someone help? Life is hell!!
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