Went to the gym for hte first time in ages. Was going of a night time so dh can care for the girls and then on a Thursday morning when I only have dd2. But dd2 has been very clingy and upset about being left so I thought - I will go today and perhaps having dd1 would help her settle.
Well we did have some tears but she seemed to settle down. I managed to get about 1/2 through my workout when I moved to the weights area to see the carer looking very worried and no dd1 in sight. She calls through the windows to me that Dd1 has 'run off' and they can't find her.
Picture a very busy industrial estate - a park area behind with public walkway. Lots of industrial units, cars etc..... I am madly looking and calling for her - whislt the carer is staying with the other children - one of the trainers ended up helping me look.
I am getting slightly hysterical thinking she has taken off down the road ( out of hte carpark and I will need to start searching the other businesses in the area or the park area ( small stream through it!!)
Dd1 appears from the other side of the building with a grazed arm and leg and hysterical. I managed to get her calmed down only to have dd2 go off and start.
Abandon workout - feeling like I missed out - which I did - very rarely get an hour to myself and since I started the gym have been enoying this time to me.
COme home in tears thinking I can't ever go back when I have the two as it is not safe - most of the week due to other committments.
THe topper is dd1 just loses the plot when I put her in the car - screaming, slapping, and being hysterical again......Having to hold her tight whilst keeping an eye on dd2 who is not yet in the car ( thank goodness she just climbed in the drivers seat and sat there). She could not tell me if she was hurt - in terms of her grazes or what was upsetting her........ she just lost it.
I am further annoyed at this little girl who has never ever been nice to dd1 anytime she has been there - she tells on dd1 - silly petty stuff, won't share the toys with dd1 and is generally not a very nice little girl..........
Well this little girl is away from the car but once dd1 goes off on her hysteria - this little girl just keeps creeping closer and closer to the car all the while just staring at dd1 which upsets her further - and I am thinking just piss off back to your parent and let me calm my child down!!!!
So cue driving home bawling like a mad woman. I managed to make it home without crashing the car ( not far) and then collapse on my bed just crying - possibly pregnant hormones, relief at dd1 being safe as such, anger at the lack of care, and thinking am I ever going to be able to have an hour to me three times a week to go to the gym ( that is all I want)
Sorry long and very self indulgent - know so many of you have it so much harder than I do but (stamps foot in tantrum ) it's not fair.....
Nice aside - dd1 came in whilst I was bawling on my bed and patted my leg checking I was okay and then brought me a tissue for my nose. ( bless!)
Am considering writing to the management of the gym and asking for a fence with child safety gates to be put in - would help the carer too......
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Just had a crap morning topped by bawling my eyes out!!!
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