I've changed my name for this not to protect myself, but as I'm fairly well known on here and know that friends read MN, so it's to protect my mother's privacy, just in case - I hope I'm not doubted anyway (will prob out self later in thread, typically)
Anyway...I was chatting with my mum the other day when her and Dad were here. I can't remember how it came about but I mentioned to her that I wondered whether one of my sons might grow up to be gay.
She said 'Well, it is genetic' and I kind of said 'what?' and she went on to explain that had she not met my father, and married him out of a need for security, she would have very likely been a lesbian. She also said that she thought her own mother was very masculine, but didn't say whether she suspected she was also gay.
I have a sibling who is gay and am very happy about that. But it was a bit of a surprise to hear this from Mum.
It isn't because I would be upset by her being gay, but that it kind of calls into question my entire relationship model. I knew that Dad adored her from the start but she was never that nice to him, well she wasn't horrid (much) but it was as though she didn't adore him in the same way. And she's told me in the past that she hasn't ever really fancied him.
I feel odd writing this about their relationship but what I am wondering I suppose is whether this might have influenced my ideas about what is a decent relationship, in quite a negative way...for example, thinking that finding a man who is 'good' to you and loves you is more important than him being adored by you. iyswim.
I've always managed to do the opposite, ie go out with men who don't love me, but I adore them...it's gone wrong a couple of times. And now I'm hedging around a relationship with a bloke who adores me, but I can't find an ember of desire for him, despite liking him very much as a friend. This feels like my 'fated' relationship if that makes sense, but it isn't how I imagined love/marriage ought to be, not consciously anyway.
I am feeling rather confused and would appreciate some input if anyone can see the wood for the trees.
Thanks.
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Strange revelation from parent regarding sexuality
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TheHerbs · 20/10/2009 13:59
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