Ok I don't know why I am posting this in relationships.... actually yes I do. H and I separated a few months back.
I am rather short on cash now (on income support etc etc) so decided to look in the loft at all the baby clothes, toys etc that my DD had and we didn't use anymore - thought I could ebay and car boot.
Embarassingly enough H was here whilst I was doing it. I burst into tears at the sight of my DD's clothes, her toys, my maternity wear...
And it made me sad because I realised that I might not get to have another baby for a long time, will I have a baby again, will I be in a stable relationship again?
It also made me sad because I remember when I was heavily preggers my H was going out alot with his mates and one night went to a party with all his mates, left me at home, upset, I was distraught because he had not been very nice to me, ended up getting very distressed on the phone at him, the next day my H told me he wasn't happy with us, his life, marriage etc. I heard this every few months from then on.
It made me so sad because I didn't have a pregnancy I enjoyed, I didn't feel cherished, I felt neglected and I wish I'd had a pregnancy where both of us were genuinely happy and excited.
Im so angry and upset of having been robbed of that and all the misery after.
I thought I didn't want anymore children because of the way I'm feeling at the moment, all too much on my own, tired, depressed and what not, but it made me realise how much I would love to have a happy and cherished pregnancy and relationship. And if I'll ever have that. Sorry if this doesn't make any sense, I'm crying as I write this
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So sad looking at baby clothes :(
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sentimentallady · 17/05/2009 18:47
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