In a nutshell:
Estranged from Dad for 25 years ish. Left for another woman when I was 6, got married, we had contact for a few years, he had new children, decided not to see us any more.
Since then contact has been minimal. Birthday and Christmas presents eventually petered out, every so often I'd try to get in touch but his non-interest just ended up in me being upset.
Also, making things worse, my Mum had married again, to a horrible, violent, controlling "man", who once told me I had to give one of my Dad's last birthday gifts back to him as "we don't want his effing charity". I didn't give it back, but after that we didn't see Dad at all, not quite sure if something happened that I didn't know about, only being 12ish at the time. We ended up having to go into a safe house to get away from XSF, tried to get in contact with Dad, he came round once, again, not interested.
Have seen him on and off since then, at intervals of about five years. It's awkward and uncomfortable.
"New kids" have since found me on FB.
I now have a 14 week old DD. In a moment of madness, I sent him some photos and a letter telling him about her birth. Didn't tell DP this, knew he would think I was crazy. No response from Dad.
Had a strop, deleted half-siblings off FB.
Cue phone call from Dad, asking if he'd upset me and asking if he could see DD on Friday.
I was so shocked I said yes.
Now I really don't know if I want to see him. DP is fuming, saying "I don't want DD meeting him, I certainly don't want him to hold her. I think you should tell him to eff off." Ultimately though, he says he'll support me what ever I decide to do, but says he thinks it'll have implications on my psychological welfare to see him.
I'm not as hard as DP though, and all I've ever wanted my Dad to do is pick up the phone and take an interest. Seriously. No matter how much he's upset me in the past, all I've wanted was for him to treat me the same as my HB and HSs.
But I think I probably will get upset - not quite sure what to do.
This probably makes no sense, sorry
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Would it be emotional insanity to see my Dad?
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fridaydilemma · 15/04/2009 09:52
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