Not sure where to start really. DH and I have been together 7 years and have a 2 year old son.
We, like others, have been struggling on the cashflo front for most of our time together but particularly over the past year. We are in debt up to our eyeballs (which is slowly getting sorted with a debt management company), I work part time as a childminder, part time as a cleaner and full time as a mum, dh unfortunatly works for one of the main companies which is currently being taking over atm so his job is on the line That's kind of a small insight into our background life this past year.
Now, I haven't always been the most forthcoming when it comes to sex and have a very low libido (which is quite the opposite to my DH) but when we did have sex the other night his touch made my skin crawl I cried and cried afterwards as was actually quite shocked at how it made me feel. DH also admitted a couple of nights later that he went downstairs and cried and cried because he felt my hostility
I know we are extremely stressed, we do take a lot of things out on each other - I have a habit of blaming him for our finances as he is the one who controls them (he doesn't like me getting involved), we have had a few holidays and be out on more than a few nights out that clearly we couldn't afford to do but I thought we must be able to if dh says the finances allowed it whereas it wasn't our wage that allowed it it was the credit cards. I also get resentful that I am juggling jobs and granted I am home more than him but that doesn't mean I have more time than him to do housework of which I don't just do the lion's share I pretty much do it all unless I nag enough for him to put the bins out or make the bed.
Basically, I feel like a bomb about to go off, I am screaming inside and can't seem to talk to him about it because I am not sure how I feel about him anymore. He has tried to speak to me and tells me he loves me and that we need to stop blaming each other for the position we are in but I am struggling to accept our situation.
Take last night for example, dh came home with a chinese, a take away. I asked him for some money today to get some food shopping and he said no, there wasn't enough money for shopping and I'd have to wait til next week (I raided mums cupboards this week as had no shopping) I can't understand why he'd spend £10 on a chinese then tell me we can't afford shopping I am just so so fed up
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Is this the '7 year itch'?
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melancholymum · 09/10/2008 09:30
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