Have split with DP, trying to find somewhere to live, so we're still under the same roof although I spent a while at my mums to think things through.
I'm not worried about any aspect of it other than the effect it might have on DS, or is already having.
We're trying to be as civil as possible and much of the time we're still getting on great but I feel pretty stressed and have less patience than normal although I'm trying my best.
There have been a couple of incidents the last couple of days that I've found really, really upsetting and make me wonder whether I'm really hurting DS.
He ADORES Thomas so took him to Thomas Land, he cowered behind my legs or in his pram most of the day, all the noises scared him and he ust looked so unsure of everything.
This is not like him at all.
Then this morning at the park every time another kid went near him he'd get a big beaming smile and look all excited as normal but would stand stock still with his fingers in his ears and though he looked happy I could tell he was nervous in some way.
I had a pretty uncertain childhood so I always wanted to make sure DS felt secure and safe about everything, that he'd always be ok no matter what but I really thinking I'm messing him up.
I'm worried it'll just get worse when we move out.
I'm absolutely gutted and have been crying for hours. Ds is out with his dad. I just feel devestated that I'm hurting him.
Sorry if this is rambling. My eyes are so puffed up I can barely see. Don't know what I want anyone to say - I just wanted to get it out and cant speak to anyonne in RL as they think I shouldn't leave anyway.
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Scared that I'm being selfish and really damaging DS.
JeremyVileSponsoredByPembsLass · 21/06/2008 14:48
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