From the outside looking in my life probably looks ok, but inside I am full of overwhelming disappointment, mostly at myself for not having taken different paths/ been wiser / not having the resourses to make things 'better' for myself and my family.
I am 33, have a ds who is my life, without him I think I might be tempted to throw in th towel.
Been with Dp for three years and fell pregnant unexpectedly. Dp doesn't want to get married as 'doesn't believe in it'.
Stuggled for years to buy small little home for myself but had to sell up to get through the SMP period after his birth, and now am trapped in Dps house, no prospect of selling (thats another story), we are not getting on, constant stupid rows, absolutely zero sex life (twice in two years) everything just feels pointless. I feel cheated and that its too late to doo anything 'big' enough t amke a difference.
The things that I so desperately wanted as a child (having had a bad childhood), namely a modest but stable home of my own and to be with someone who loved me enough to want to marry me, these two things now feel completely out of my reach.
Sorry, just neede to get this ut, thanks for taking ther time to read.
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lifeisadisappointment · 16/06/2008 22:45
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