To give you enough background knowledge without 'outing' myself to anyone I know in rl on here, my DP and I have been together on and off for 10 years.
He had an affair with a work colleague about 4 years ago which was on and off for a couple of years.
I was very devastated at the time and it took me a long time to get over it. He always denied being with her but one look at his text messages would prove otherwise. She also used to send me emails telling me to back off and leave them alone to get on with their relationship.
When I eventually had enough I had him buy my share of the house from me and I moved out and had a couple of short lived flings which stank of being on the rebound but was never as happy away from him as I thought I would be.
Literally as soon as I moved out he started calling and texting every day saying he missed me etc and we would meet up every couple of days for a drink and would constantly be on the phone together etc. Within 3 months of me moving out his relationship with this other woman had broken up (grass not greener, and no excitement without me to lie to??), we started dating again and eventually I moved back home.
We had a baby last year who was born very prematurely and died. It caused a great strain on our relationship as he always admitted he had never really bonded with the baby so never grieved as much as me. I also bought back into the house again.
Anyway to cut a long story short...we are now expecting another baby in a month or so. I noticed that he had been behaving strangely for a couple of months and started to check his text messages again. (I read enough MN to know that there is a variety of opinions on doing this.) I was aware that the woman he had an affair with is now single again and they were in contact again although it all just seemed very friendly and nothing to worry about. I know they have met up and he has lied to me about who he has been meeting but I still didn't think much of it as they have always remained friends and this has been no secret.
Anyway his behaviour has been odder as the weeks go on and the fact he won't put his mobile down led me this week to check his phone where I found two text messages
he had sent to her - one read "I just want to say you looked beautiful the other night" and the other one said "When we get married I think we should go live abroad."
Her responses made it sound like there was nothing going on between them, ie "thanks" to the first and "oh yeah?" to the other but it's the fact he sent them that's getting to me.
So, I confronted him admitting I was in the wrong to read his texts but I had and he said nothing was going on so I should stop overreacting. He said if i'd read the responses it wasn't like she was interested or anything??? So I asked him, what if she was interested but he didn't have an answer to that. Everytime I try and bring it up again he won't respond and cuts me off so I'm in limbo to know what's going on with us.
He has openly admitted to his friends that he is in the dog house but I bet he hasn't told them why, and is acting like there is nothing wrong and is actually having a go at me for being upset still and not being normal with him. He asked what I wanted to do today and when I said "nothing with you" he just went out and hasn't reappeared so now my mind is doing overtime wondering who he is with.
Tell me i'm not in the wrong to feel like this, or please give me some advice. I haven't told anyone in rl yet as it took me ages to convince them that I was doing the right thing getting back together with him in the first place, they will just love to pass judgement on this!
Even just some sympathy will do! I'm a tad today. I feel that after everything we've been though i'm still coming second best to this other woman as he is very vocal
about not wanting to get married to me and I couldn't tell you the last time he called me beautiful.
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Not again. Advice please.
bluebump · 14/06/2008 18:13
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