Ok its not getting any easier and I feel like crap

[TLV]

dh came over today on my invite to see dd, tried asking him to come home again (and we ended up kissing etc, no sex tho) I just made myself feel worse and whats even more crappier is that its his xmas party tonight and I'm sat here with dd wondering who he will be talking too, wish this night was over! and I think about things and try to call him to tell him I love him but he didn't answer, I know i'm not helping myself so why i do I do it he said he would let me talk but I know its not going to do any good.

[mitfordsisters]

so sorry TLV - try to stay busy with something else and not contact him - easeir said than done, I knowx