I feel so stupid for writing this because I know that everyone has problems not just me.
I feel that everything is getting on top of me and I'm finding it hard to cope.
I guess the main worry is money and because I'm so stressed out about this, all of our other smaller problems that normally wouldn't worry me are really starting to get to me.
Basically we don't have a lot of money and this normally isn't a problem as we manage to get by. Recently however we've just had lots of big things to pay out for all in one go, all the bills seem to be coming in at once and we are struggling to keep up. Some weeks we haven't been able to afford to buy food and are living on a diet of pasta and beans on toast.
We're all healthy enough and I know this is something we've just got to do for now.
I think whats worrying me most are my dc's. I feel like such a failure to them. We've only been able to afford to buy them a couple of small presents each for Christmas. My ds starts school after Christmas and I honestly don't think I'll be able to afford to buy him school shoes.
At this time of year we're being asked out for meals with friends and have to continuously turn them down, everyones talking about Christmas shopping and what their buying their children, we all desperately need new clothes so at least with Christmas coming up I've been able to tell family to buy dc's the clothes that they need as their presents. I feel like I'm walking around looking like a complete scruff.
My Dh is working hours and hours of overtime but it doesn't seem to make any difference. And because of the hours he's working he just falls asleep in the evenings (he starts work at 5am), I don't think we've had a proper conversation for weeks and our sex life has gone out the window with his energy levels.
I did ask dh if it would be possible for him to try and stay awake for one or two evenings a week just so we could catch up with each other but he got really cross with me and said he was tired etc because of all the overtime so how could I expect him not to fall asleep.
I feel really anxious all the time and have been having panic attacks. GP has referred me for counselling. I just feel like the biggest let down as a mum and a wife.
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pricklybells · 13/12/2007 12:50
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