Am a regular but have namechanged as feel pretty pathetic.
All my adult life I have struggled to make friends, at school I had lots of friends and I am still in touch with some of them in fact although we don?t see each other any more as I?ve moved away. But I?ve never really seemed to make any new friends since. I have a few aquaintences that I know through dd?s preschool, people who I would have considered friends, but it?s always me who?s done the calling/the inviting round for lunch/coffee and invites have never been reciprocated. I?d always put it down to the fact that people obviously have their own lives and that they just maybe don?t have the time, but now I?m not so sure.
A couple of months ago I overheard one of them talking to another and saying that she would see her later. I just figured they were meeting up for a coffee or something and then someone let slip that the whole group were meeting up at a soft play place and it seemed I hadn?t been invited. I never said anything, as they obviously wanted to meet up but I did feel a bit excluded. Then it transpired that this was actually a weekly occurrence, that they all meet up after preschool on a Friday and go out. This carried on for a couple of months and then they seemed to have other things to do and it didn?t happen any more.
Then today we were all in the park, and one of them said that she hoped the weather would be good as they?re going on a picnic on Friday. I just said ?oh are you?? and then said I thought it was going to rain. She ignored me and started talking to one of the others about what they could do if it was raining, and they then decided they would all go to the local soft play instead.
Obviously I understand that people have their own lives, their own friends, and that I?m not always going to be a part of that, but I just feel as if it?s always me that?s excluded. Before I gave up work something similar happened, all my team arranged a night out and didn?t tell me and I didn?t hear about it until the Monday after.
I just don?t know how to be a part of things. Is it possible just to be invisible? I do come across as a confident person but I don?t think I?m that noticeable if that makes sense? Even on here I am a very regular poster and yet I don?t think that people notice me.
I just don?t know any more.
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I'm always the one that's excluded, am I a horrible person?
ontheoutside · 18/07/2007 21:45
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