(NC for this.)
Not even sure where to start. DP and I have 2 DCs together, aged 4 and 20 months. We haven't had sex since DC2 was conceived; basically because I don't want to. I don't think I am attracted to him and somehow I just feel uncomfortable and awkward about the idea.
He doesn't shower enough (due to psoriasis) which is really, really offputting too.
House is a mess which I have a lot of trouble coping with. I work a lot and try to make an effort to relax when not working, so while I COULD be cleaning more, I'm not.
The main problem is that he gets quite snappy a lot of the time. This is understandable as he's tired. He is the one who gets up with the kids and spends the most time with them. But I HATE it. He gets snappy with the kids and also with me. When I call him on it he says things like "I was reacting to how you spoke to me". I have told him a hundred times that if he thinks I was rude he should tell me, not snap at me and leave me to figure it out, but nothing happens.
We are in counselling but not sure how that is going as we get along fine in general, we have a laugh with the counsellor and she comments on how we obviously care about each other.
The main takeaway from the last few sessions seems to be that I need to suck it up and deal with it because you can't change other people. Obviously I realise that, and I accept it. But I can't live my life like this. So if nothing changes I think I want to leave.
That opens up a whole new can of worms because we couldn't afford to live separately (we can hardly afford to live together), and there is a housing shortage in our area so it would be well-nigh impossible for me to find an affordable place to live. And I couldn't bear to leave my children anyway; how on earth could I do that?
I feel stuck with all this and not sure what my next move should be. I just want a peaceful life and a happy (and reasonably clean) home. Not to bring my children up in filth with parents who are snapping at each other all the time.
Any thoughts?
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Feels like relationship in tatters, not sure what to do
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lovesmusiclovestodance · 28/07/2014 19:55
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