After some experience please :-)
I have been separated from my ex husband for nearly 8 years, we were 21 & 23 when we first got together and things were perfect. After 3 years together we got married and a year later he left me.
Reason, I did pay him enough attention or engage in relations enough for him.
At the time I was relieved he left, things hadn't been good for around 6-12 months, in fact we probably got married to try and save things if I'm honest. We ended up hating each other.
Shortly after by chance I met someone else, only after that point did he decide he wanted a divorce, as before he had said he was in no rush?
The divorce was finally granted 18 months later, and I went on to re marry. I've been remarried for coming up to 5 years and we have a family together and very happy :-)
I have in the past tried to reach out to my ex husband, to form closure and so we are at peace with each other. Conversations started off fine, with him even telling me over 2 years after he left that he would love me til his dying day but it would just never have worked between us. Then he would turn and start throwing stuff at me....til in the end there was no point. We've not spoken since just before I re married, which suited my fine.
Then seemingly out of no where latter part of last year I started thinking about him, questioning myself, was it my fault, what did I do wrong, why can't we be friends or civil, I got angry, I got down over it ......I feel like I'm eventually grieving for the loss of the relationship. Sometimes I even have romantic notions, what it would be like to see him again, does he still love me, think about me......I'm driving myself insane :-( I've never once contacted him, and never will, but I sit and wish he would, so we could eventually part on good terms.
It feels like a gaping wound that can't heal itself.....and I feel in total limbo ....I'm not sure what to do or how to move forwarded with this. I love my current husband very much, and feel I'm being unkind to him by feeling like this.
Any words of wisdom would gratefully be received x
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Whatshappenin · 22/07/2014 11:20
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