Please somebody slap me. In June I threw out stbxh who was moody, angry, resentful of my job, felt burdened when he had to have the kids on his own, contributed almost nothing to running the house or raising the kids (dd2 has ASD, dd2 Dyslexia, both need extra support in various ways). At times he was verbally abusive and scathing towards me, and miserable.
In recent months I have felt variously: euphoric, proud, liberated. But in the last weeks our separation agreement is nearly final and the mortgage about to go into my name. The cold nights have drawn in, I have had a very, very, heavy heart and suddenly realized today that I am feeling guilty for 'not giving it more of a chance' with stbxh.
FFS I gave it ten years (the rot set in with the first child) during which time I also gave him an ultimatum (sort your anger out or I'm gone, which he failed to do).
So why the hell am I feeling like this? Is this like a grief thing? Am I losing my mind?????????????????
Open to all interpretations/opinions including a good hard slap round the face.
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chucked out stbxh in June now feeling guilty WTAF??
Handywoman · 17/12/2013 19:21
Somebody said to me a few weeks ago, be careful because in a few months time the doubts will kick in! Sounds like what's happening to you.
Makes sense because you steel yourself to make the biggest decision of your life, you justify it for months, wait until you are so sure and then once you've done it feel so relieved and free. I suppose at some point that wears off and this is what is left to deal with.
Somebody also said on my thread that guilt is poison! It so is!
You know you've made the right decision. It could have been 2, 10 or 20 years. He'd never have changed and it would have stolen your life.
Here's to a fab 2014! Just get through all the sentimental rubbish of the next couple of weeks and don't look back again!
x
Share the Hoover incident here ? (I will probably remember it from being under a different name)
he said he preferred shagging the Dyson to you ? 
Hee hee not quite this will probably sound rather dull now just that when I finally told him I'd had enough, nothing ever pleased him, was ever good enough, I was at the end of my tether, crying, baring my soul to him, telling him I felt like a single parent, he never did any housework etc... His response was a genuine and meek 'but I don't like taking the Hoover upstairs' 
that was his ACTUAL response. I chucked him out a few days later
Ah, Yes, it's often the most banal things that are the proverbial straw 
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