I posted a while ago because I found out the man I was seeing was seeing someone else. I was suicidal and I had some lovely support on here, I am now on AD's and I have stabalised enough to think a lot less about suicide now. I am waiting for counselling.
Things have stayed bad/got worse since then. I am about to lose my house, I am being pushed out of the family business and have an infection in my ear which has moved to my brain, I dont even know how serious it is yet, I have to go to hospital for an OP tomorrow.
I dont understand why all these horrible things keep happening to me. I used to be such a positive person and I cant see any light at the end of the tunnel at all. Its only my children who are keeping me here, but my ex is now saying that he thinks they should live with him. I think hes probably right.
I spend all my waking hours imagining the man I was seeing with his new love, its been months now and I still think about him all the time, I know I am better without him, but I feel so lonely and low that I just want someone to put their arms around me and tell me that they will be here for me like he used to, even if he didnt really mean it...
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Did I really deserve all this? does karma hate me that much?
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Justwakingup · 31/10/2013 11:44
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