This is a very delicate situation, I have been a member on here for a good few years but due to the nature of this thread I have name changed and closed off my profile. Again because of the situation I can not be to full on with information so this really is going to be as basic as I can make it.
I met this person in a place where I was going to rebuild my life and make something of myself in relevance they were in a "position of trust". However it was not how I saw them as we are both adults so the "position of trust" idea never crossed my mind.
Anyway I have been on my own for quite a few years and have a background of MH issues due to past traumas.
I was (when I first met this person) already a whole new being and ready to grab life to the full.
Anyway I have grown to be in this situation, I mean every time I see them it literally brightens my day. (Sounds so corny I know) I have never felt this way about anyone, sexuality and gender issues in my life have made me think I would not want this person. and this just proves to myself even more that these feelings are so strong.
Anyway before it gets far to long. I am back again now and although I am not (for the time being) actually under this persons "guidance", I found out today that any type of "relationship" like ours would be would lead to dismissal for them and most likely dismissal for myself. It was mentioned in a conversation about a previous "relationship" that was discovered a few years back.
Anyway nothing has happened lots of "signals" that it could but after today I cannot risk their job like that it is too awful to even think about I really do care for this person and want no upset to them. I just need serious help to let go of these feelings before it is too late and it feels like it is breaking me all over again.
Sorry if that is a big ramble or sounds odd, I have trouble saying what I actually mean so if any does not make sense please let me know. Any help/advice would be greatly received.
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Heartbrokenday · 30/09/2013 23:05
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