I guess I just need some outside perspective on my situation, I dont think I am really thinking with clarity and not sure if this is just a temporary feeling.
Basically my grandmother passed away at the beginning of february. To be completely honest it has devastated me. We were very close and she was much more like a mother to me. Obviously this has been a very difficult time for me especially with surrounding situation which is explained below. But, since my grandmother funeral I have had an overwhelming urge to have another baby (I have 2 DDs already) I have always wanted more kids but we were planning on waiting for a couple of years. I dont know if it is partly to do with the grief but I just feel I dont want to wait anymore and it just feels right to do it now. My husband is pretty laid back about when we have more kids and is happy to have more whenever I am ready but...
In the middle of January this year I found fb messages between my husband and a girl he works with. I confronted him, kicked him out the house etc. He moved back in when my grandmother died because I honestly wasnt copng with the children then but we were sleeping in seperate rooms. We had everything out and he eventually told me everything that had gone on between him and this girl. (Im ashamed now to say I even went to see her to get her side of things) He cried, apologised, all the usual.., had a mini breakdown and said he was petrified he was going to lose me and our girls. We decided to go to marriage counselling and although it is early days there has been steps forward in our relationship and I do think there is something there worth saving. However, we still havent slept together, not sure Im there yet although that does complicate things with my desire to have a baby.
Honestly I dont know what to do, I know it sounds stupid but I feel like my grandma wants me to have a baby and that somehow Ill have a little part of her with me. At the same time after two DDs I know babies are stressful and it puts a lot of pressure on even a solid relationship but then I also think having our DDs really made us closer maybe it will help bring us together as a family again.
I guess you can tell Im pretty confused, sorry for rambling.. any thoughts much appreciated!
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Coping with grief and an overwhelming urge to have another baby
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MouseyHousey · 23/03/2013 22:06
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