Dont know if this is the right place to post this, and not really after any advice, but just feeling so sad and wondered if anybody else could relate to how I'm feeling.....
I've always been a daddy's girl, in my eyes my dad was invincible, he could mend anything, fix anything, he was always a big, strong man with a wicked sense of humour, the kindest heart in the world and he was always, always there for me, even when I was a vile, rebellious teenager who said and did horrible things, he never turned his back on me and he's always just been there.
And now he's very old and getting confused, a lot of the time he doesn't know what's going on, he says things that 'my Dad' would never say in a million years and then hasn't got a clue he's said them. He is unable to do anything round the house now, this in a man who taught dh everything he knows about DIY and handiwork. It absolutely breaks my heart to see him like this.
My Dad is still there a lot of the time, he says things that crack us all up laughing ("Grandad-isms" is what ds calls them), he tries really hard to still do things and be helpful, he gives me hugs that make me feel as if everything is
going to be alright.....but I know that really they're not and its so very hard to come to terms with.
I try to be strong and positive because I know my Dad as I know him has gone and I've got to get used to him as he is now, but it's so very hard. It almost feels like I'm grieving for the loss of my Dad. I'm in tears now writing this but it feels such a relief to get it out in the open as it were. My love for my dad is as strong as ever, but I don't always recognise him now. I feel as if I'm going a bit mad, but it so difficult to explain. I just wondered if anyone else had similar experiences and could give me a virtual hand to hold......
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ladymariner · 22/02/2013 22:18
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