I've had a horrible few weeks and I'm really struggling now. My best friend died suddenly just over three weeks ago, which obviously has devastated me. Additionally I met a lovely man back in July. It wasn't long after I left my husband due to his cheating and I certainly wasn't looking for a relationship but sometimes life takes you by surprise and me and new man got very close.
Unfortunately he has issues of his own. He left an abusive relationship at the end of last year and understandably has issues to deal with as a result of the way his ex treated him. Despite that we were doing really well and were very happy. We talked about a future together.
Then a few days before my friend died lovely new man had a traumatic incident at work. He was off work for three weeks and was arranging counselling to help him deal with both the work incident and the issues from his last relationship. He returned to work last week and was finding it difficult but apparently coping. Then on the Wednesday, the day before my friend's funeral, he phoned me in a state. He'd had a complete breakdown at work and has gone to stay with his parents. The timing was awful obviously as we were both in a bad place at the same time, but we kept in touch and were there for each other as much as possible.
Then I got a long text from him on Sunday saying that he doesn't feel that he's ready for a relationship at the moment, he needs to heal himself etc. That there are physical similarities between me and his ex and he looks at me and sees her, that he's too emotional to speak right now etc. This knocked me sideways and since then we've exchanged a couple of text messages but not actually spoken. He says that he'd like us to be friends but doesn't want me to wait for him, that he's sorry and never wanted to hurt me etc.
I just feel totally alone. My best friend's gone and now I've lost my lovely boyfriend too. I completely understand that he needs to deal with his issues and that he can't necessarily focus on a relationship whilst he does that. But I can't bear the thought of not being with him anymore. I'd give him all the space he needs, all the time he needs if only he'd come back to me.
I can't function at the moment. I've been off work since my friend died and my GP's just signed me off for another 2 weeks. I just lie in bed crying constantly. I need to pull myself together but I don't know how.
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Really don't feel like I can cope anymore
Rachyrachrach · 15/11/2012 10:24
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