Stale.It's a horrible word but its how I feel about my relationship and I dont know where this is going.DH and I have been together for 15 years and have two children aged 7 and 5.
We both work FT so pretty tired but lucky in most respects as we dont have major money worries and have a a nice life. I just can't connect to him. I can't explain it but I feel detached. We are OK in the day to day sense but you only need scratch the surface and things don't feel right. We barely touch each other. Not just sex (almost non existent since my second child) but no affection.
We argue about niggly things, for example I spent the day with the DCs and my sister and her daughter yesterday and he chose to stay at home. When we got back he was moaning about 'having' to clean the house and being stuck indoors. I just spent the evening in the other room as I couldn't be bothered to discuss it with him.
He has spent the evening trying to get my attention with stupid jokes referencing a TV show I am not watching and he gets cross when I dont get his joke. I just find it all so irritating.He stomped to bed saying he doesnt get any attention and I just thought "and?"
I just feel so switched off from him.
I have tried to analyse where it comes from. I have put on weight in the last few years (I am a size 14 so not about to sink a ship) which I know he hates so I feel self conscious but obvioulsy not enough to tackle it. I have also fallen out with my father (long story) and not spoken for years which I constantly struggle with. I am in a job I feel ambivalent about. It's all a bit vague but I need to understand why I feel this way.
Is this just how long term relationships are? Is this life for us all particular after children? How do I get to the bottom of my feelings about this?
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Megan74 · 12/11/2012 23:08
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