I dont know where to start or what im even trying/wanting to say here.
i think im just airing some of my feelings...in the hope that someone chips in.please give up if its too rambly/random to read ..im writing thsi as much for myself, as to get replies x
As a little intro, im 34,have one son [2yrs next week]and a dp[male] of 8 years.ive felt different from everyone else on some level since i was pretty young...but im also very sociable,have dear close friends and in many ways have a great life.i scrub up quite well..but can run to ruin pretty quickly.
Underneath im struggling with very low self esteem and my 'increasingly' lesbian sexuality.which may or may not be linked.
its sounds such a cliche but i really am CONFUSED about my sexuality!youd think it'd be quite easy 'men? or women?' but its so hard.
i love my dp and we have had as warm and as wild a relationship as you might expect. during pregnancy especially,i fancied him with a renewed passion!
what i find though is that every six months or so something just wants to burst out of me...as though im 'living a lie'[cliche after cliche]
i have been a pretty regular mumsnetter for about a year...more lurking than posting...but this isnt my regular name [not that youd know me...i havent been on one list yet!]
these days i log on much less frequently. i think im trying to say that this prob wont be much of a juicy interactive thread...but i would welcome and really appreciate any of your thoughts.
i started off crying and now feel strangely calm!
i have just re read this and for such a long post it hardly says anything!
xx
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ambivalent · 31/08/2005 14:11
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