My dd4 is now 2 weeks old and was born at 30+5. She is doing quite well and my recovery from the section is good but I need to talk to people who know. I need to know do you ever get over the pain of being away from your new baby? Does your heart mend? Do you ever get over the stress of all the 'bing bongs' from the machines in the nicu? At the moment every noise sends adrenaline rushing through me and I'm in a permanent state of high anxiety.
I don't feel like I 'own' my baby yet. I'm trying to get breastfeeding established but it's so hard because I can't follow my mummy instinct. Sometimes when she's rooting it gets suggested that she is too tired to give it a go. My heart just needs to hold her all day and all night and I need to look into her eyes so she knows I'm her mama. At the moment I don't know if she even knows who I am.
How do you manage other children? My 3 girlies are finding it so tough as I am trying hard to be everything to everyone but I always seem to give them less than need and want.
God this is hard, all I want to do is to go to the nicu right now and snuggle my little girl in my arms.
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Hangingbellyofbabylon · 19/01/2014 23:25
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