Feel like an irresponsible teenager. AF gone awol. Just KNOW I should test but...

[UnchainedChastity]

...im just TOOOOOO scared.

Obviously name-changed for this, not that im known on here, but im sh8tting myself.

Have a fairly new baby, only DTD 3 times since, partly breast-feeding.

I suppose in the back of my mind, I kind of 'know'that I am. Had a bit of spotting about 8 times over the last 3 weeks but no AF to speak of.

DP and I have loosely spoken about having another child, and it wouldnt be a major problem in tiself, it'd just be me getting my head round it.

Please, can I just say that im not really up to being hammered with criticism or lectures about irresponsibility and what I could have and should have done to prevent this situation - cos I know already and that all such comments are probably right. I also feel really bad and recklessly selfish cos I know ther are many MNs who do the 2WW religiously and would love to have this glimmer of hope right now.

Please can someone 'hold my hand' till I summons up the courage to test?

Thanks in advance. x

[cmotdibbler]

If its not a major problem, then its great isn't it ? And if you can find someone who hasn't dtd recklessly at some point, let alone when it would be fine to get pg, then I'd be very suprised.

Go get that test !

[StealthPolarBear]

hand holding
no lectures - it hardly sounds as though they are needed
TEST
(then tell us............)

[UnchainedChastity]

I so know that I should, even told myself that I'd wait until 1st of April - as if it result will somehow metaporphosize itself into an April Fool Joke - and NOT be positive! How dumb is that?

[StealthPolarBear]

lol

[cmotdibbler]

S'amazing what we can convince ourselves of isn't it.

Come on, do the test else I won't get any work done today !

[UnchainedChastity]

Thanks for all your support.

Im off to drop DD to school now. Will try and summon the courage to test later.

[UnchainedChastity]

So,

just tested and got a bold horizontal line and a feint vertical one.

That's it then.

Checked the clarity against the 2 tests I did when got BFP (with DS) last year (dont know why I kept them) and it isnt as strong. Will test again on 1st April as planned.

Boo hoo. Im shocked rather than devastated, just hasnt sunk in.

[cmotdibbler]

Congratulations ! It'll sink in soon. When are you going to tell DP?

[UnchainedChastity]

Tonight.

I blame him actually; two weeks ago, out of the blue, he said "im sure you're pregnant!"

Ive not long returned to work after maternity leave and looks like i'll be doing the 'revolving door' thing.

Bloody hell. Someone please pinch me so I can wake up!

[sagitta]

I know how you feel. It took me weeks to do the test. Its so shocking - even when you already kind of know. Good Luck!

[nappyaddict]

so ... who are you?

[UnchainedChastity]

Thanks again for all the support.

Good question, nappyaddict, even I dont know who I am at the moment. All I know is im not the person I USED to be anymore - got to get my head around being a mum of 3 under 5!

That isnt ME, surely!

[StealthPolarBear]

Nice philosophical answer and way round the question!
Hope you're OK and get to grips with it soon - CONGRATULATIONS!

[TigerBollyKnickers]

There is definitely something in the water around here atm isn't there?

Is there an office chair that we should/shouldn't (delete according to preference) be sitting on?

Congratulations