bonding

[kazjack]

My baby boy was born just a week n a half early n had to stay in icu for 2 weeks during which time, I, myself was seriously ill and therefore we didn't get a lot of time together and missed out on a lot of the 'normal' new mum n baby things. I love my little boy so much but just feel like there is a kind of hazy screen between us stopping me from going all out in emotion. I don't think he feels this as he loves cuddles n kisses and is very smiley and full of affection, I think it's just me and I feel guilty that I don't have a huge surge of love every time I look at him