Eating issues help

[Katzia85]

Hi, I am now the proud mum of a three year old boy and a 4 month old girl.

Before I fell pregnant with my girl, I was in treatment for an eating disorder and when I fell pregnant, whilst it was tough to eat consistently, I kept telling myself I need to eat for my babies sake.

Now I am breast feeding and I have to remind myself I need to eat to produce the milk for my daughter, but I am on the edge. Teetering on a cliff where I think I am so close to falling off and back into old ways it's scaring me!!

Does anyone else have experience of dealing with issues like this?

I am still in treatment but it's hard because I am huge and yet I arrive for meetings - it's a little humiliating and makes me feel even bigger as I sit waiting to talk about an ED, yet I look like an over eater not an under eater!

Every day is a battle!