I think that category would be very very full Panda, we have all had a place in there at one point
Seeing what the GP says sounds like a good plan, although they won't be all that supportive of you taking someone else's prescribed drugs.......
Whilst cruising the net I saw a job last night that I might apply for. Not that I want to go back to work until next year, but it's in the industry that I currently work in and it's evenings from 6pm. Not sure of exact hours each week or salary but am curious though. It would free up my days for the children (i.e. reduce daycare costs, be available for school events etc) but I'm assuming it would be around 30hrs a week, so a decent salary.
But of course I can't find my cv, since dh swapped over the hard drives........

thanks mamafox xx the dose my friend has given me is the standard dose that the consultant suggested, and she has given me 2 cycles worth (10 pills 1 per day for day 5-10 of cycle.) i decided to waiti until next cycle is upon me to decided whether to take them and i was thinking about discussing things with my GP too but up to now i cant get an appointment i am quite scared in case i react bady and then i would have to explain myself to whatever medical professional i see and i would then be lumped into the 'mad woman desperate for a baby' category i should have badges made up...

penguin i didnt mean to make you feel bad nor you fruity if you are still hanging around i and i havent scared you off i just wanted to be honest so if i manage to get up the duff in the future you wont all be decieved. as i said i dont know whether to take them or not but it is nice to know i have options.

I have no idea about taking Clomid un-monitored but if you weren't going to be monitored anyway?? Does the dosage differ for each person? Even though I lost 2 babies I can't say I understand how you feel Panda as I haven't had the struggle to fall pregnant in the first place. Just feel for you so much, no advice, just know I'm thinking of you
Is there no way you can afford any sort of specialist assistance?
On a completely different note, have just spent the last half an hour pricing flights to the UK next year I blame dh, he had a look at work last week, in a bored moment, and then came home and told me. And he's mentioned it several times since I would so love to come back for a trip, think I need to, to get it out of my system as to where I want to live, but it's about a $10k holiday given our entourage.......

Just wish there was something I could say or do to make you feel better. I know one thing I can do is never never call you desperate again, promise x

no penguin you have all be a massive source of support for me it is just i can feel myself getting bitter as the days go by and it make me feel worse that i can see everyone starting to label me 'desperate'

hey penguin x-posted there you are quite right. it really does hurt to see how far everyone has come and i am still in the same position i was 2 years ago i really do try to be positive but after all this time i think i deserve some progress. it isnt happening for me any other way. it feels like it never will at this rate.

Oh sh*t Panda I'm another one that's just called you "desperate" on our x posts.
F*ck sh*t b*llocks I've really put my foot in it
At the end of the day it's your decision and if you feel it's right for you then do it, I am so sorry if you feel we're not being supportive enough

hey fruity the way i see it is i was getting the clomid from the consultant for 3 unmonitored cycles anyway and then having to go back for a follow-up appointment once i finished the last cycle (3 cycles were the recommended amount by the money grabbing consultant) this way is no different to that except i wouldnt have a follow up appointment. for any monitoring (blood tests/us scans etc) i would have to pay a hell of alot more and the consultant didnt think it made a difference to the outcome. the only reason i am considering this route is i know where these have been prescribed from and i know these are the real deal. it isnt a case of feeling so 'desperate' that i will try anything, it is an opportunity to try another avenue which would otherwise be off limits for us.
i dont mean to sound abrupt but i am really trying not to look like/be a baby desperado and it seems that every way i turn i am being called desperate. i am in a lonely boat at the mo ...

Mamafox I think that's a lovely idea giving your dd2 a birthday party at the end of November, that way it's stops stingey people buying one present! How's the building work coming along?
Hyena 2lb away from pregnancy weight! Bloody hell
Fruity Hope the party goes alright tonight, sorry to hear you are still having problems with DL
Giraffe Hope the christening goes well today. Maybe all the excitement today will wear N out and you'll get a good night's sleep tonight
Nemo Hope to see you back soon with a full update on T
Panda I've just been looking on t'internet at taking clomid without prescription, there is far more negative than positive stuff unfortunately, maybe like Fruity said you could ask your GP to monitor you whilst taking it, it could be you have no side effects whatsoever and get that magical BFP, but imagine if something went wrong and it buggered up any chances you may have in the future, you'd never forgive yourself. I can understand how desperate you must feel, I'm sure it doesn't help how much our thread has moved on, it must eat away at you everytime you visit us I know it would me x x

Feeling a little less miserable than earlier in the week, thanks for the suggestions, I have watched some Jeremy Vile thanks Hyena love the DNA testing ones! If I potter all day I can watch TV without too much pain in the evenings so will plan little things everyday, Monday is breastfeeding workshop for 3 hours with knitted breasts
Ebay has taken a hammering and I'm going to start washing the baby stuff I have next week. Started to pack my hospital bag today, but then gave up as I've no idea how much stuff to pack for baby as I'll be in for a few ideas Fruity any suggestions would be gratefully rcvd. I'm off to research the c/section threads about bag packing now.
Enjoy your weekend all x