I lost my baby a year ago (14th April 08) at 8+3 weeks. I found out at the dating scan at 9 weeks, when we were advised there was no heartbeat. After trying to communicate with a foreign student doctor we were handed some pamplets on the options and a telephone number to go in the next day for an ERPC.
I was lucky in that my private medical insurance paid for me to visit the local Nuffield, where a patient consultant scanned me again and confirmed the baby had died. I went in two days later for the operation, fully believing that I couldn't cope with a natural process. And to this day I still believe that.
However, what happened next is still upsetting me to this day and I am wondering if any body else had this experience?
Our local health authority arrange for miscarried babies to be cremated. We were advised at both hospitals that the NHS hospital would be in touch shortly to advise when this would happen. After 4 weeks of chasing this, we were told that the remains were still waiting for testing to be done to see if it was a molar pregnancy. This was the final straw for me and my lovely husband took over the daily calling.
He eventually was advised that the service would take place the following week at 9 am and we were welcome to attend. We both felt we needed to say goodbye and made arrangements to go. A confirmation letter from the hospital arrived with the details
When we got there we went into the crem but they weren't aware of us coming as the hospital had told them no one would be attending. They had already cremated our baby earlier in the morning.
As you may understand, we were devistated and on investigation, the hospital blamed us for not telling them we were going - even though we have a letter from them. I lost the will to fight and gave up.
I am now 12+5 after trying for 9 months to conceive again. I have made arrangements to travel to another hospital to have this one as I couldn't face the local one - even though the standard of care from the local midwife seems to be lacking now I have made the decision.. I should be happy, I have had three scans (private, dating and nuchal fold) seen my baby swimming around waving at Mummy - but all I feel is anger and regret I didn't act futher on my little beans behalf. I need to say goodbye.
I would really like to hear from other mums/dads who went through something similar or was this a mistake?
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Whatwillstaydown · 06/05/2009 20:13
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