Need to connect - so hormonal and still convinced I'm going to miscarry

[AuntyFlo]

Well, it's day CD34 and despite 2 positive pregnancy tests I've had period pain on and off for the last 8 days.
Still have all the tell tale signs of coming on - draggy sensation down below, going hot and cold and blubbing at any time whether it be in traffic, at work or in the shower.
Have to be 6 weeks to get an appt at my EPU so waiting is the hardest part - another week to go.
My friends' baby is due next month when mine would have been (I had mmc in july 08 and mc in nov) and it's taken alot of courage to see her throughout. She knows about the first mc but not the second as I didn't want her remembering her pregnancy as a negative time because of my misfortune.
I sent her a letter last weekend saying I was finding life difficult and that I wouldn't be very good company at the moment. Didn't touch upon why but said I was done with being brave and just wanted to be invisible for a while. Also asked her if she'd keep me updated on her.
Of course I'll be in touch with her but just so concerned for me and what lies ahead.
Although my Mum and partner are great they haven't been through all this physically or with the hormones so if any of you have any words of advice then please get back to me. Thanks x

[youknownothingofthecrunch]

I have my fingers crossed for you. It is really hard.

IT's one of those horrible times when you're convinced the worst will happen, but at the same time you can't help but hope for the best (at least that was me). I found it really hard to think any thing but the worst.

x

[MadMarg]

No real words of advice, just letting you know that I understand how you're feeling. I am waiting for my scan next week - until then I just can't feel hopeful about this pregnancy after my mmc.

I found Christmas and New Year's difficult, because that was when our baby was due - but for me it did help having other people around - but only because none of them knew that was when the baby would have been due. I really didnt' want anyone talking about it.

Do what you need to for yourself, and take care.

[Cris96]

No advice, just keeping everything crossed for you.

had 2 mc last year. last one very hard. did a test yesterday and that little line appeared. Just don't know how to feel due to last time, scared to be happy.

Also all my friends seam to be having babies 1 already here and five on way, i'm happy for them just wish i could be that confident. i'm just gonna try and not think or do heavy lifting! Wish u all the best x