Hi all,
I wanted to start this thread as I had read some similar earlier threads from lovely mumsnetters, but they were from several years ago and aren't active now. I have found I am feeling pretty overwhelmed at times, so I wondered if anyone else out there is feeling the same and could do with a sounding board / some hand holding.
We had been trying for about 8 months for our first baby and I had a miscarriage nearly 5 weeks ago while on holiday, at 8-9 weeks. I had an ERPC on holiday, then flew home. Since then I have had two courses of antibiotics for suspected infection (it wasn't in the end), additional scan and blood tests because of suspected remaining product (there weren't any) and 2 weeks of thrush, which finally went this weekend. I went back to work 2 weeks after the miscarriage and on the whole, I think things have been getting better, although it's been very up and down with emotions. Then for the last few days - I think since I got my first period on Saturday actually - I have felt this constant sadness. I initially felt relieved, maybe even a bit happy to have my period, but then I crashed and have felt crappy ever since. It's there when I wake up and it's there pretty much all day. I feel tired and lethargic and everything feels a little bit empty / without meaning in a way. I feel like I should be feeling better by now and am really upset by how hard it has hit me. I want to feel stronger and ready to try again but I'm not sure if I am. I am terrified I am getting depressed - I had problems last year with anxiety and depression - and that I will be told I need drugs, which I don't want. Some days I feel like I have just totally lost the plot! I just want someone to fix everything really. God that is a right old whinge, sorry.
I think it's all just really lonely and it might help to have a live thread for people who are a few days/weeks/months on, to share how they are feeling. Alternatively, everyone else may well be doing fine and I am a big old whining mess (sob)
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