Hi everyone,
This is my first post after stalking these forums. Have finally plucked up the courage to post myself.
I am having an absolutely awful time. I had a missed miscarriage Feb this year (scan at 10 weeks showed baby stopped developing at 8 weeks, had seen heartbeat at 6 weeks) and I opted for a D&C as I was so shocked at what had happened. Recovery was fine and we decided to try again as we are desperate for a sibling for our 2 year old little girl (we had no issues at all with that pregnancy).
I fell pregnant straight away and we were over the moon but anxious. I went to my GP (was told to go and request early scan due to previous mmc) and was sent for a scan at what I thought would be 8 weeks. Scan showed a gestational sac measuring 4 weeks so we decided my dates may be off and so another scan was arranged for the week after, where the sonographer found a developing embryo with a strong heartbeat measuring 7+1. As you can imagine we were ecstatic! The EPU assured us that there was no reason at all to suspect that there would be a problem, but I was offered a further scan just to confirm dates given the discrepancy with dates. Had this scan exactly a week ago, where an embryo measuring only 6 weeks, and no heartbeat, was found :( I opted to try and miscarry naturally but a week later I am still waiting for something to happen.
I am really struggling to cope emotionally this time. With our first miscarriage I was totally devastated but this time, to have our hopes dashed, then lifted to only be dashed again has absolutely broken me. I am actually a student midwife and I am not sure I can carry on. I feel absolutely heartbroken and I am an emotionally wreck. I feel like I am falling into a depression, and the worst thing of all I am taking it out on my lovely husband and our little girl.
I just feel so despondent and I don't see how I will ever get over this.
Thank you for reading, so sorry it's so rambly.
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jessiepie1 · 18/06/2014 11:00
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