I was pregnant with my first child, me and my partner were so excited. I found out on the 5th of May i was pregnant and since i found out i was paranoid something would go wrong. It is like i had intuition, i just knew something wasn't right. I spotted regularly but i thought that due to my naturally sensitive cervix that must be normal.
Yesterday morning i woke up and started cramping bad, there was a little more blood than usual but i tried not to panic. I heard so many stories from other people who bled loads and still had a happy healthy baby, so i tried not to think the worse. I was due my dating scan in 3 days so i was sure everything would be ok.
By 3pm i was cramping bad, felt like extreme period pains, and i started to bleed bright red blood. I rang my midwife, she was on holiday and in her message she said to ring Triage, rang Triage, they said to ring my GP. Eventually got an emergency appointment for 5pm, but by then i was already passing huge clots and bleeding profusely.
Was sent to A&E and had my blood pressure taken three different times, by three different people. After each time i was told to wait in the waiting room. By this point i was miscarrying in the waiting room, large pools of blood were pouring out every time i stood up. I was crying with emotional and physical pain. I had my blood taken, they said everything was fine but that i would have to come back the next day for a scan as no one from the Ultrasound unit was in.
So as i had came to the realisation that i had lost my baby, i had to go home and be in pain then come back in the next morning.
It was horrible, being sat in a waiting room with couples who were beaming over their new scan photos, seeing their baby for the first time, while me and my partner were preparing to see nothing on the screen.
The doctors were still acting optimistic, 'Oh so you have some pain and bleeding?'.....'No, i have had passed so much blood that i know what the inevitable outcome is.'
I didn't mean to come across angry, but i was frustrated with the care of the doctors, i felt cheated, i was pissed.
But as they passed me a 'Coping with Miscarriage' booklet and told me to get rest, i had already come to terms with it, as i knew what had happened over 12 hours ago before they confirmed it.
I am OK now, i am gutted beyond words, but i am trying to be strong. I am in paid, the aches are constant and the bleeding is heavy, but NOTHING in comparison to last night.
I truly pray i never have to go through that again and i feel tremendous sympathy with any woman going through the same pain.
How is everyone else coping with the cramps and pain? No pain relief is working for me....
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Miscarriage/pregnancy loss
Miscarried last night at around 11 weeks.
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leanne963 · 17/06/2014 16:46
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