It's been 6 weeks since I had my 2nd mc. This one was at 12wks, first one 9 months ago at 10wks.
I was doing so well coping with it, getting my head around it and feeling sad but manageable if you see what I mean.
And yet this week, I've just lost it. I'm so tearful over nothing, really pissed off over stupid little things and just feel like I'm going mad. It's not even baby-stuff that gets me going, its anything.
I feel like I'm being a shit mum to our toddler and a crap grumpy wife. I can't be arsed to try hard at work.
What I really want to do is just get very very drunk. But of course I haven't and I won't. I just want to not have to deal with feeling like this. I want to be numb.
A friend of mine has just announced her pregnancy, with almost the exact due date I would have had. And I just feel so angry that its ok for her and my baby is gone. And then I feel like a horrible person for feeling like that.
I've never felt so massively out of balance before. I don't know whether this is normal grief or something else - depression? Anxiety? I dunno.
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Feel like I'm going crazy
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sugarandspite · 29/07/2013 20:50
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