Due date coming up :(

[Yearofme]

I was pregnant last year. At 12 week scan found out my baby had a brain defect incompatible with life (anacephaly)
Had a TFMR, nearly died from complications, partner came to see me in hospital to break up with me after telling me he wished it was my DD (from previous reltionship) that had been terminated and not his baby, he got mad because I wouldn't agree, there were many other things but that's another thread

I've been doing really well. But my due date is two weeks away.

I'm so sad. I feel empty and broken inside. I just feel so desperately alone. I've got no one who understands.

[Bakingtins]

Yearofme I'm so sorry you had to go through that, and that you weren't supported as you deserved to be by your partner at such a terrible time.
Anniversaries and EDDs are difficult days to get through. I've found it best to acknowledge that rather than try to tough it out, if possible take some time off if you work so you can spend the day as you need to. I would also recommend planning something to acknowledge the significance of the day. I got a lot of comfort from buying a baby-related charity gift in honour of my baby's due date, figuring if I couldn't bring her safely into the world I could at least help another little one have a good start. Other ideas could be to plant a tree or shrub, light a candle, release a balloon, write a poem... anything that seems meaningful to you and releases some of the hurt and sadness you must feel at what should have been.
You are not alone, there are many many women who have been through loss of a baby and will have days that are particularly difficult, and there will be someone here who can identify with however you are feeling. I think katatonic is right that you are stronger than you think, but even strong people are allowed to take time out to grieve, the coping and the grieving go hand in hand. Hope the day passes peacefully for you.

[owainsmum]

yearofme so sorry for your loss. I also lost a baby at the end of last year, same as you we found out at the 12 week scan that the baby had anencephaly so I had a TFMR. It was awful but I have been feeling ok in recent months. However now that the due date is approaching (9th July for me) I am thinking about it more and more, and getting upset again. Sorry I can't really help, but I know exactly how you feel. As others suggested maybe mark the day in some way to celebrate your little angel baby, and if you haven't got anyone to talk about it with in RL, there are plenty of lovely people on here