Apologies for the self obsessed nature of this post but I need to know if anyone else feels like a completely different person since their loss.
I had an MMC, first baby, last September. It ended up being medically managed which for various reasons was very traumatic. Since then I find myself feeling very different about a number of things and have gone from being quite a very anxious, safety concious type of person to a more risk taking, don't give a damn type of person. For example I want a tattoo, (which I NEVER would have considered before). I have wanted to change my ten year career as a health professional to, amoungst other things, a shop assistant, a writer, a cleaner and currently a fire fighter. I've worked hard to get recognised in a particular area of my current career and now that it is happening I find I don't give a shit.
I recognise that this may all be part of the grieving process. But these things are becoming harder to ignore and what I don't want to do is start anything and then regret it.
We are still trying for a baby but it isn't happening. Everytime it doesn't happen I feel like absolute shit and spend most of my time in a lovely fantasy world in my head where I've run away from everything and found some sort of amazing fantasy life.
Is this normal? Do I just go with how I'm feeling and see what happens?! Am I just being completely fucking stupid?
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Does anyone else feel like a completely different person?
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girlindevon · 10/03/2013 15:18
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