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Miscarriage/pregnancy loss

just numb!

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rugbychief · 30/01/2013 11:03

I miscarried December 2011 (dh's birthday) and it's taken us a year to get pregnant again, we found out on Christmas Eve. On Monday I had some brown discharge and then red blood so I panicked and went to A&E. I then had a scan which showed a fetus less than 5 weeks. Because there is no heartbeat they want to wait a week, rescan me and then make a decision on whether my pregnancy has ended. I have been bleeding on and off, with occasional cramps but not like the last miscarriage. I don't know what to think, what to believe. I cant mentally make the dates work and believe the baby is still ok but i can't think about walking around waiting to miscarry! .... I can't hold on to a chain of thought....I need a shower and to get dressed and go for a walk or something but I'm just sat, staring at the tv in the same clothes I changed into when I got home from the hospital. I just feel numb......
I guess I'm actually only writing this to make myself start to come to terms with it all................As devastating as it was last time there wasn't this waiting game, it was complete and final.

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cutestgirls · 30/01/2013 11:12

oh rugby, i am so sorry to hear this. i was in the very same position just over a year and half ago. saw bloody show, spoke to midwife she said go do blood work. i did. then bled again for over two and half weeks was left with this horrible feeling of uncertainty. eventually after all that the scan showed that i miscarried. i can tell you now, that i remember being slightly relieved that the word was out and the tension was over.

i wish you luck and hope that your end will be better than mine.
miscarriages are devastating. holding your hand.

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rugbychief · 30/01/2013 11:19

Thank you cutest, it is just horrible but I think I need to plan for the worst because otherwise it will be like dealing with it all over again. I have some wonderful friends in real life and dh is wonderful but I spend so much time being everyone's go to person I'm just shutting myself off from the world and going catatonic. Roll on next Wednesday......

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fackinell · 30/01/2013 11:30

How awful for you, Rugby. Hmm
I had a NMC last summer and got the 'come back next week' talk. Sadly for me, the embryo dislocated by itself on day 2.

What I'm trying to say is, no news is good news at the moment. It's not feeling like your MC and bleeding is very common in early pregnancy. My friend bled right through (is a staff nurse and didn't even know till 8mths) and now has a strapping 23yo.

It is very very difficult not to stress, but baby is still hanging in there for now. Could you have your dates mixed up? Thanks

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fackinell · 30/01/2013 11:31

Oh sorry, just saw you are 5wks. Got muddled with my own situ. Mine measured 5-6wks but should have been 8.

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