I have recently had my second miscarriage and I'm worried about how I'm dealing with it. I was very down after my first one (just over a year ago), especially when we had trouble conceiving again afterwards. Last year was just awful to be honest. And now I'm facing it all again, starting my second year in a row having just miscarried, and I don't know how to deal with it.
I currently cannot stop thinking about driving my car into a wall. I am visualising doing it, the impact when I hit the wall. I wouldn't say I'm suicidal, I don't want to die but I feel desperate for a 'way out'. I'm definitely not thinking rationally, my thoughts are scaring me. I am not good at saying this out loud, I wouldn't even know how to start if I went to my GP. My DH knows I'm feeling low but I don't think he realises the scale of it. I just don't want to face up to the year ahead, of not being pregnant anymore. If I think about it I just want to cover my ears and scream lalalalalala. So I'm trying to not think about it, but then a thought creeps in and I almost panic in my haste to push it back down again. The emotional pain takes my breath away.
Does this make ANY sense?! I am feeling totally mental but I know on the surface I seem OK to people.
If I went to my GP how would I even begin to explain and what could he do anyway? How do I get over this?
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Feeling very low after second miscarriage
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Mapal · 29/01/2013 22:23
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