I just went to Ds1's father's house.
It is about 2 miles away and yet I have not seen him for about 3 years. I didn't even know if he still lived there, but he does, and his new wife (I think they married last year) answered the door and was pretty angry that I had turned up.(I don't have their number)
My reason was that it is Ds1's first ever Xmas play today. I had an epiphany at the roundabout on the way home, and dreamlike drove the other way, to his father's house. I just wanted to say, Ds1 is in a play, do you want to see it.
His father (N) hasn't been in touch all that time, and I had tried calling and left countless messages (apparently to a wrong number) saying would you like to see Ds, but never had a reply.
Anyway I was very apologetic and she asked me in, I half thought she might kill me, but she said N would be home in a minute and when he got home (she rang him first) she went out with the dogs and left us to talk. It was Ok, he hasn't changed, is friendly, etc. (and never sure if he's being honest) and we chatted about Ds for about 20 minutes before I went. It did feel like a dream.
N said he didn't want to cause any upheaval to Ds, and I agree, and I left it with him to think about the next step. Now I am bricking it.
Firstly I am afraid N will want Ds to go to their place, without me (Ds is 4.6) which I sort of hinted wouldn't be ideal, as he doesn't know them, but then how do we arrange a meeting if it has to involve me? I don't think she (or N) would want us spending any time alone with Ds. (N's scared of me!)
Secondly, I hate her. I have heard rumours before that she was unkind to N's other child (who is now 13) and meeting her gave me the distinct impression that she is fairly harsh, also fairly anti sharing N, and by that I mean sharing him with his own children.
I do not know her of course, she may have a great other side and of course she wasn't going to be super friendly to me in the circumstances (erm actually, I was to her, so why not ) but she was really sort of almost sceptical, had this smile on her face like I was perhaps lying or something - or was after money - I just don't know what she knew, or what the whole feeling was about it. But I got the idea she had heard I was an evil cow which I have to say I'm not.
(I think by the time I'd been there 10 minutes and he was home, she had been disarmed slightly and realised I wasn't a threat)
I could not tell what she thought about Ds entering their lives, she kept saying 'well they just live round the corner,.' and then tailing off, not sure if she was trying to say he should see his dad, and I was the one who had prevented it or somehthing like that. I would actually rather they didn't see him. But it isn't about me, is it?
And I know N could be a great dad. Him and Ds are very similar.
So have I let my son in for a huge, horrible fight revolving around a nasty stepmother and her (I suppose) rights to seeing him, without me there, or was it inevitable (her kids are at the junior school, he is in reception) and something I was right to do? I am so scared. Please calm me down.
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TwinklyfLightAttendant · 12/12/2007 10:24
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