fed up with 'hanging in there'-its just endless stress

[AMAZINWOMAN]

the past few years have been an absolute nightmare. Ive been assaulted, my windows have been smashed in (neighbours from hell, split u with partner and have had a bereavement from the only person who supported me. My family dont even help me as they are so selfish. (i see my brothers every 3-4 years)

my landlord should give me compensation as i have damaged property and havent been able to use my bedroom. But when i told him, he aid we'll discuss it when we review your rent. He wont even paint a concrete bedroom wall now!

I dont mind going through stress if something positive happens. But my stress, doesnt even get me anywhere. I know im strong to cope with all this and raise two great kids-but so f**g what! why do i get even more stress!

i deserve better than all this. And i get mad when i have to work really hard, just to pay rent and bills, and not get into further debt. I see my landlord who tries to bully me, and swans around in a decent car. I see people in 2 parent families who have support, and still say its hard and tiring.

i cant even see a way out of it either. Just to keep on going and trying to be posiitve-but im fed up with it.

im fed up with being told im strong. I just wan to start enjoying my life, well living it for me, insteed of being constantly strong.

my kids see their classmates with fantastic TVs, cars, clothes etc and now want this.
even though i work really hard-its just for food and a roof. my kids mums look around my house in dibelief, as you can see i havent got much

i saw a photo of me today, and i look tired, sad and just drained. i deserve better, and i just cant see it happening.

[PirateInaPeartree]

i am feeling crap atm with the usual stres, bollocks, and a lovely dizzy virus, but didn't want to see your post go un answered.

I dont want to sound cliched, but its a shite timeof yr, and so many peeps i am talking to o are really pissed off with life atm.

You sound like oyu have every right to be tho, you are always fighting. I admire you, and send you a big hug.

ur not a capricorn to are you??? cos we got it bad atm !

[Magdelanian]

Echo the last post. Pre christmas can seem worse than any other time of the year. Especially for us single mums. I am quite happy on my own but it always feels wrong in the run up to christmas. The money situation and the lack of support magnifies. Dont depair just try to sort out each practical thing one at a time.

[citylover]

So sorry you are feeling like that.

I agree that it's a bad time of year - all that enforced joviality and syrupy sentimental stuff.

I am feeling quite low at the moment - last year I think I was still riding high on the relief of getting out of a crap marriage.

But now the reality is setting in and the future doesn't look too good - just one constant struggle and very uncertain. Most of the time I can sort of deal with this but just lately have been feeling quite agitated about it. But I am sure it is related to this time of year.

Whereas my ex seems to have landed on his feet with new 'rich' (he couldn't wait to tell me that!) partner with a large house!

However I think you just have to grit your teeth, keep expectations low (I know that's hard when the DCs are excited and are expecting alot) and hope for a better time in the New Year.

I always feel better after the longest day in the year and alsoafter New Year has passed.

One year when DS1 was a baby and exH was away on business trip I jus went to bed and slept through New Year.