as time goes on since h left, its seems to get worse not better

[pirategirl]

HI,
Does anyone relate to this feeling? My h left almost 2 yrs ago, and i get sad, angry,soem days feel nothing as too busy to think, some days i just miss him, and some days its like I only found out he was leaving yesterday.
Its almost as if I'm going backwards, like the enormity of what he has done to me and our child is just hitting home.
He has been mean, has turned into a stranger. Ihave tried to be fair, but am sometimes sick of myself being this way.

if i could only truly stand outside of the situation and look at it for what it is now, I would be able to be harder.
x

[mamama]

Oh no... my H left nearly a year ago and I was really hoping things would start to feel better soon...

[glitterfairy]

DOnt you think it is up and down? Some days it is fine and some not? To be honest pirategirl maybe you should get a little angry. Being nice about it all when you ahve been treated really badly is too much strain at times.

Mamama there really is hope do not despair and if I contrast my life now with my financial struggles and my ongoing court nightmares it really really is better for us all.

[pirategirl]

HI,

Yes Glitter, I understand ehat u mean, I do get angry, yet it is up and down, and when its down its almost like I cannot believe it all over again.
it frightens me that my love is still quite strong for him, well its tough when they changed but you didnt.
We were married 7 yrs b4 our child was born and had been tryin for 3 yrs, so when it all coame to an abrupt end it seemed infathomable.

With kiddies inthe mix it is more testing isnt it, my fair ness has always been to wards him for the sake of our child.

grrrrrrrr!

[nikkie]

Took me 5 years (though major thing was that we didn't get to make a decision as he was too pissed and I couldn't look after him )to get over it.

[AMAZINWOMAN]

its ok pirate girl to feel the way you are feeling. The way you are feeling is a normal part of grieving. You are grieving the loss of a man you wanted to spend the rest of your life with. all those years trying for a baby-you thought it would be a "proper" family and never once did you think the family would be just you and baby.

you realise that life could have been so different-and that is why things dont seem to be getting better xx