Hello all,
I've been lurking on mumsnet for the last few months and have finally plucked up the courage to write as you seem a helpful and sincere bunch, with useful advice.
I'll try make my story as short as possible and as truthful as possible though it is very difficult as I am sure I worry that I will be judged. Anyway, here goes:
I've been married for just over 10 years and it has been pure hell. We met under great circumstances and were very much in love. However, things started to go sour as we have very different personalities and dealt with the world in very different ways. He very often embarrassed me and I just could NOT bear it. He seemed to take it in his stride and didn't care one little bit whether we had argued or not. I would be insane, not able to eat or sleep while he would comfortable get on with his life and eat and sleep just fine! Drove me mad and a combination of immense frustration and amazement and disrespect made me quite violent. It escalated to me not allowing him to sleep and making him take the time "to think". Then I found out he had been wining and dining a woman from his office. He claims it never went further than that but he bragged about it to colleagues and seemed to think he was some lothario! This took out relationship further downhill and I grew more violent, did not allow him to sleep more than 5-6 hrs a night, kicked him out of bed to sleep in a sleeping bag. We never went out, never saw anyone apart from soem family. We did not see his family as his mother is a witcha and deliberately did all to make sure we fought by the time she went home. I tried to twll him time and again to stick up for himself and us, but as always his problem solving skills were disgusting, so we haven't spoken to or seen his family in years.
Eventually we had a child who is now three. Since her birth my violence has been minimal and so have the fights. At least in front of her. I may have been an awful wife but I am great mother and despite everything I have a very well adjusted intelligent, kind and happy child.
Two months ago he left the house, 1.5 months ago he sent me an email saying he had taken on a solicitor, then divorce petition arrives. Throughout this whole time he has been completely unreachable for me and my dd. Never answers any emails (I must have sent 60 odd!), never answers his phone and I have no idea where to find him as he has no set place of work. I have no family here and I am completely alone in taking care of dd, the household and my feelings of fear and depression. I can see why he wants out but just disappearing is amazing. He has neither seen nor spoken to dd in that whole time and of-course I am sure she misses him. I am now beginning to think that his behaviour is bad enough that it is time for me to stop waiting and take proper action. I would love your opinions.
Thank you.
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stayorgo · 30/07/2006 18:13
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