Hey there, Im new to all this but I need advice please. My daughter is nearly 5 years old and is an angel, shes never given me any real trouble and its been a joy to raise her on my own as best as I could. But my trouble is that I am still living in the past. I wasnt with her dad properly when I got pregnant and as soon as I told him I was pregnant it was obvious he didnt care at all. I got over that quickly and realised I was going to have to do it alone.
But then the crap started on his part, spreading lies and storys about me to mutual friends and people who live close by. Its a small town, everyone knows everyone. As soon as my daughter arrived tho I didnt care about what anyone called me, it was just us 2 against the world. That was all fine and I kept myself together fairly well (apart from the nights I cried myself to sleep or had to leave a place because he or his family were there and I got the rage!). Last year tho the cracks really started to show. I have never gotten over my hatred for that man for abandoning his daughter. I dont care that he left me because I never had proper feelings for him but he abandoned a little bundle of joy and happiness because he was too selfish to man up to his resposibilities.
It also hasnt helped that he lives 5 mins away and I pass him on a regular basis and he just smirks. I feel anger towards that man but I also feel extremely guilty that my daughter hasnt had a dad. I blame myself for not being careful and getting pregnant off a total loser but then if I hadnt been silly and immature I wouldnt have her in my life either.
The child has never wanted for anything and is happy and healthy but I just cannot shift how I feel about what happened. I just feel that its totally unfair that she doesnt have a chance at a ''normal'' family and that Im left with this guilt and anger when I should be happy my daughter has turned out so well and I should be getting on with my life!
If anyone has any advice at all I would really love to hear it. Thanks x
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NinaCarryMe · 13/05/2013 12:36
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