How do I have so many lovely friends but feel so ALONE?!

[Time2Nap]

I have a huge life changing move coming up and I can't talk to anyone as they either think I'm ungrateful or try to be supportive but don't relate so can't really help! I feel I'm boring people the few times I mention leaving let alone ever having a chance to share my true feelins!

I find it hard to open up to people anyway, even the closest of friends. The few times I have asked to someone who try's to help someone comes along and interupts convo with useless stuff and poo poos me.

The only person I can share with and relate to is my OH but I feel I'm stressing them out with it as they have enough pressure let alone feeling like they are ruining my life- which is not true, I just hate the unknown and scared of leaving my life, losing all my friends, and having to start over.

It's took me so long to settle here and realise what my toxic mother does to me / our family. I find it hard to trust people especially women and I really don't want to do it again even though I know I have to as I love OH and never planned on staying in this county but truly didn't think I was going to leave the country.

I know I chose to marry my OH, knowing the prospect oe at maybe moving abroad but I suppose I didn't truly think it would happen - kind if surreal. 10 years dwb the line and its going to happen!

I am excited and think it will be an adventure, with so many opportunities for my family but what if its awful, I can't just come home! I have more stresses on top with my pets.

Sorry for babble I just need to get my feelings of my chest

[Internationaltraveller]

my OH is also from another country and when I moved countries (again!) I decided to move forward week by week, not looking months and years into the future. It kept my focus lighter and in the moment and as a result I didn't spend too much time depressing about it. Yes, I have bad days but moving abroad is not starting over. you still have friends even if they live far from you. nd you do get a whole. Lot of new ones too.

[Internationaltraveller]

vent away!

[Time2Nap]

That's very good advice, and actually is way to daunting to look to far in furture because who knows.

I think it would be easier if we knew where we are going so I could focus on researching the area (have an idea what to expect) and if we were going in a few weeks but we have several months to dwell on it so people keep asking questions I have no answers to!

I know my good friends will still be here but is not the same as being just down road. I know that I will meet knew ones and having DC makes it easier to get out there but that's a concept I'm struggling with we are finally settled here after years and the friends I've met since having DC, took me 2years to get to know on a level where we are close etc. I just don't want to start over and worry it could be as ad as last move. I do keep trying to think positive.

Thank you for listening